This is where one woman explores. She's embarking upon a journey of rediscovery (bear with me..). Learning to re-nourish the mind and body and find inner, ahem, peace...

"It's never too late to become what you might have been." George Eliot

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

le burger

 Sometimes things are just exciting and making a good burger is one of them.  So, I used this recipe from Gourmet Girl's blog and adapted it to make hamburger buns!  Oh, the small things in life...

They crumbled a bit, but were definitely buns you could hold in your hands (ha!).  

This is like bread y'all...

I know, I know, the idea is not to pine for all the grainy things of days gone by...(what?!) I don't really want to get into making substitutes - mainly because it's not usually a great substitute, but these...these are keepers...

I'd better go before I say something even worse.... 

Sunday, November 11, 2012

pizza and philosophy

 Lunch today was this yum recipe from Gourmet Girl.

I'm happy to cautiously report that I have begun to lose weight - I'd estimate about 10 lbs. since eliminating wheat from my diet - about 1.5 months ago.  Now, 10 lbs. on a significantly overweight individual goes quite unnoticed and so I've quietly been enjoying the way my clothes are beginning to fit more comfortably.  I'm still affected by my lifelong habit of reaching for food mindlessly, but I am finding it to be much less satisfying. Without the addictive wheat-based foods, I no longer feel compelled to eat just to...well, eat.

It's a learning process, though, and it's not always smooth-going.  We've indulged in pad thai a couple of times and both times I've eaten too many rice noodles and regretted it...

Having lived most of my life as an overweight person, I believe I can develop a way of describing what that's like - you know, how it feels. Superficially, I think overweight women pay more for clothes because it's much more difficult to spend time looking for affordable clothes.  I often shop in desperation and will settle for what looks the least bad.

I will write more about this.  At the moment, 8 year old girl is on the couch talking up a storm.  She's sick, my poor darling, but that hasn't affected her ability to talk...and talk....She was just speculating about all of the other activities going on in the world right now....and then she said, 'and then, if you look really closely there is a little girl on a couch who is not feeling well....'

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

in check

 It's supposed to be a crustless pumpkin pie.  It turned out to be much like a pudding (partly because I don't own a pie plate and put it into a small cake pan).  I think since eliminating wheat from my diet, my taste buds have become more sensitive and I'd been craving pumpkin for some bizarre reason.  It has to do with enjoying food more - I imagine that's because the urgency to eat and the tendency to overeat are vastly diminished.  

It's good.  I ate two small bowls of pie yesterday evening and really appreciated the texture and taste sensation (did I just say, 'taste sensation'?).  Pumpkin, full-fat coconut milk, coconut flour (just a touch), eggs, spices, and coconut palm sugar (not ideal, but....) - baked for about an hour...  

So, we've been eating so-so...

Thursday we went out for Thai..I had the Cashew Chicken without the noodles - can't be sure the sauce was completely wheat-free, but....

Friday for supper we were invited to my sister's house - salmon, salad, and veggies - red wine, of course...I brought a butternut squash and apple soup thickened with full-fat coconut milk.  

Saturday evening we had pork tenderloin with a cauliflower mash and a veggie stir fry...white white, of course.   

Sunday my mom wanted to order pizza and she very kindly ordered one for us with a gluten free crust - it was really good, even though I know there are other starches in the crust.  

Last night we had a thick meat sauce with shirataki noodles - soothing and filling.     

I haven't noticed much weight loss, but I'm so happy in the knowledge that we're eating really nutritious food.  I'm starting to relax into this new way of eating and I'm not fussing to create huge inventive meals  - no time, sadly.  I'm also trying to steer away from replacing wheat favourites with the alternatives - I want to focus on real, unprocessed food - veggies, meats, fruit, and eggs.  

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

at a loss for

I've been thinking about a career change.  It is occasionally a bunch of fun to write a sentence to see how it looks all laid out grammatically.  

A career change is something I could consider at this moment in time.  

Indeed, she contemplated a career change.  Unfortunately, she was a woman who lacked natural talent.  

It would, of course, be irresponsible not to work.  The family unit would suffer and she simply could not bear the guilt.  It is highly unlikely that the job is the actual problem.  The job is not the problem in her life.  Her life will not be miraculously more happy should she stop working.   

Yes, writing in the third person singular is an effective tool for creating distance between the writer and reader.  

She's quite forgotten that the intent of this "blog" was to focus on health. 

I should stop now.  Stop. 


Saturday, October 27, 2012

feeling better 2

 I am not a professional blogger and so my pictures are all mixed up.  

I`m feeling a bit better - at least, my appetite seems to have returned!  

Last night we ordered Pad Thai and I know rice noodles are not acceptable under a strictly low carb plan (like the one I purport to follow); however, it was a celebration of all things yummy and good health.  It was listed as `gluten free`on the menu, and it was scrumptious.  

This morning we went to the market and the find of the day, for me, was this fruit.  It was all organic and you paid by the pound.  Again, I know that fruit is to be eaten in moderation, but this looked too good to pass, oldest girl loves her fruit.  

For supper tonight , I made a butternut squash casserole adapted from this recipe.  I used organic Swiss cheese, and it was SO GOOD.  I guess I must be feeling better due to ravenousness (that at PMS).  And when I say `ravenous`, it really does not equal actual hunger - just a happy looking forward to yummy food.  

steamed squash first and then sauteed with onion in butter 

Almost ready to pop in the oven..(not sure where finished product picture is)

sprinkled with topping and ready to go...

better feeling

 I`m having trouble with all of the pictures I wish to upload.  I will try in a fresh post...

My first Papaya


Coconut Crusted Chicken with Papaya and Green Bean Salad and Butternut Squash and Swiss Casserole 

Sliced almonds toasted with Sucanut sugar (I know, I know!) for salad

Friday, October 26, 2012


Yes, this is me these days.  Really would like to know what's going on health-wise.  This is the second class (of 3) I've canceled this week. I'm not going to obsess over what it might be... There are simply too many possibilities and I'm ready for a break from imagining my own imminent demise. 

I spent a small fortune on a product called Natural Calm.  Perhaps you are like me and did not realize that we are magnesium deficient?  I know, right?  Who knew?  Joyous Heath uses this product, and it just started appearing everywhere during my online travels.  It was front and center and my local health food store...amazing how things all fit together.  So, I buy it (fifty bucks, dude!) and get it home and then get cold feet (after googling side effects of Natural Calm).  This is a cure-all (pms, constipation, stress, muscle pain).  I drastically reduced the RDA and took 1/4 tsp. with hot water.  It was remarkably soothing and I'll continue with that dosage until I feel ready to increase a bit...  

My appetite has not been very good.  I've been eating eggs for breakfast, very little for lunch, and some type of meat and veg for supper.  My stomach still cramps after eating...

Poor me, eh?   Don't I sound pathetic!  Maybe I need to get out of this funk.  I'm going to get my behind to my desk and try and get some work done.  

To good health! 


Wednesday, October 24, 2012

applesauce, cinnamon, honey

To ease stomach: applesauce, bananas, peanut butter with buckwheat honey, and gluten free crackers (sprinkled with cinnamon and chia seeds)

Simple and Yummy Chili 
 I've been sick.  In fact, I'm still not well.  I don't even know what it is, really.  I taught on Monday, and it was incredibly difficult to get through the day.  I kept going over in my mind how to tell the class that I'm actually, like, really sick right now so we're going to end early...didn't happen until the very end of the day - moments from near collapse.  I somehow made it home and into bed.  Body aches, shivers, fever, and severe stomach cramps for the next 12 hours or which time, things started to get marginally better.  My stomach is still very unsettled and cramps up every so often.  

I treated my illness with chicken broth (Monday evening); applesauce, cinnamon and honey (Tuesday morning), and the above concoction (Tuesday lunch).  By dinnertime, I was hungry in an empty and angry way - man in the house made chili and it seemed to do the trick.  Before bed, I had a small apple and in the middle of the night I woke up with severe cramps.  These cramps are disturbingly accompanied by cold sweats lasting a few seconds.  The pain I felt most of yesterday is what I imagine being beaten must feel like.  My rib cage, shoulders, stomach, groin, and legs throbbed - the pain radiated and I have no idea where it originated from.  There are other symptoms too delicate to mention on this family-friendly blog. 

I've been doing a lot of Dr. Googling and have come to the following conclusions:

  • my pancreas is turning in on itself and producing too much lipase (yup), or:
  • my pancreas is not producing enough lipase 
  • it's hormonal and cold sweats are early onset of menopause (almost FORTY here...)  
  • it actually is gastroenteritis (this is by far best option and most likely)
  • body is rebelling against wheat-free regime (to hell with this, give me some pasta!

As you can see from my scientific observations, I have no idea what's knocked me off my (sore) feet.  

I, of course, am a strong believer that knowledge is power and that it's up to the individual to be aware and beware.  I appreciate, however, that it's very difficult to interpret the myriad of information out there and without the proper time and proper frame of mind, one might get lost in it all.  

I've been reading the wheatbelly blog religiously - religiously, I say!  I've put too much time and emotional energy into the thing, and while it is undoubtedly terrific, it's not everything.  Nothing's everything (chew on that one for awhile, eh?)  Lowering carbohydrates is a good idea - yes, but not eating any fruit?  Not so much.  There is also a tendency towards saturated fats (meat fats, etc.) that leaves an icky taste (literally).  His entire premise is confused by what it means to give up wheat and what it means to lose weight effectively and what is or is not "permitted" on the "wheatbelly plan".  So. there.  I'm skeptical now, and I'm going to find my own happy middle.  No wheat, fresh, organic, varied, and lovingly prepared and, of course, photographed.  

This writing has given me a bit of an energy-boost.  Tonight is zumba and yoga, but I really do worry that it's too soon - something glandular is going on and I'm likely to sweat a small river with such exertion.  Too much info?  Right.  

Well, I'm off then.  Ta.