This is where one woman explores. She's embarking upon a journey of rediscovery (bear with me..). Learning to re-nourish the mind and body and find inner, ahem, peace...

"It's never too late to become what you might have been." George Eliot

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

at a loss for

I've been thinking about a career change.  It is occasionally a bunch of fun to write a sentence to see how it looks all laid out grammatically.  

A career change is something I could consider at this moment in time.  

Indeed, she contemplated a career change.  Unfortunately, she was a woman who lacked natural talent.  

It would, of course, be irresponsible not to work.  The family unit would suffer and she simply could not bear the guilt.  It is highly unlikely that the job is the actual problem.  The job is not the problem in her life.  Her life will not be miraculously more happy should she stop working.   

Yes, writing in the third person singular is an effective tool for creating distance between the writer and reader.  

She's quite forgotten that the intent of this "blog" was to focus on health. 

I should stop now.  Stop. 


Saturday, October 27, 2012

feeling better 2

 I am not a professional blogger and so my pictures are all mixed up.  

I`m feeling a bit better - at least, my appetite seems to have returned!  

Last night we ordered Pad Thai and I know rice noodles are not acceptable under a strictly low carb plan (like the one I purport to follow); however, it was a celebration of all things yummy and good health.  It was listed as `gluten free`on the menu, and it was scrumptious.  

This morning we went to the market and the find of the day, for me, was this fruit.  It was all organic and you paid by the pound.  Again, I know that fruit is to be eaten in moderation, but this looked too good to pass, oldest girl loves her fruit.  

For supper tonight , I made a butternut squash casserole adapted from this recipe.  I used organic Swiss cheese, and it was SO GOOD.  I guess I must be feeling better due to ravenousness (that at PMS).  And when I say `ravenous`, it really does not equal actual hunger - just a happy looking forward to yummy food.  

steamed squash first and then sauteed with onion in butter 

Almost ready to pop in the oven..(not sure where finished product picture is)

sprinkled with topping and ready to go...

better feeling

 I`m having trouble with all of the pictures I wish to upload.  I will try in a fresh post...

My first Papaya


Coconut Crusted Chicken with Papaya and Green Bean Salad and Butternut Squash and Swiss Casserole 

Sliced almonds toasted with Sucanut sugar (I know, I know!) for salad

Friday, October 26, 2012


Yes, this is me these days.  Really would like to know what's going on health-wise.  This is the second class (of 3) I've canceled this week. I'm not going to obsess over what it might be... There are simply too many possibilities and I'm ready for a break from imagining my own imminent demise. 

I spent a small fortune on a product called Natural Calm.  Perhaps you are like me and did not realize that we are magnesium deficient?  I know, right?  Who knew?  Joyous Heath uses this product, and it just started appearing everywhere during my online travels.  It was front and center and my local health food store...amazing how things all fit together.  So, I buy it (fifty bucks, dude!) and get it home and then get cold feet (after googling side effects of Natural Calm).  This is a cure-all (pms, constipation, stress, muscle pain).  I drastically reduced the RDA and took 1/4 tsp. with hot water.  It was remarkably soothing and I'll continue with that dosage until I feel ready to increase a bit...  

My appetite has not been very good.  I've been eating eggs for breakfast, very little for lunch, and some type of meat and veg for supper.  My stomach still cramps after eating...

Poor me, eh?   Don't I sound pathetic!  Maybe I need to get out of this funk.  I'm going to get my behind to my desk and try and get some work done.  

To good health! 


Wednesday, October 24, 2012

applesauce, cinnamon, honey

To ease stomach: applesauce, bananas, peanut butter with buckwheat honey, and gluten free crackers (sprinkled with cinnamon and chia seeds)

Simple and Yummy Chili 
 I've been sick.  In fact, I'm still not well.  I don't even know what it is, really.  I taught on Monday, and it was incredibly difficult to get through the day.  I kept going over in my mind how to tell the class that I'm actually, like, really sick right now so we're going to end early...didn't happen until the very end of the day - moments from near collapse.  I somehow made it home and into bed.  Body aches, shivers, fever, and severe stomach cramps for the next 12 hours or which time, things started to get marginally better.  My stomach is still very unsettled and cramps up every so often.  

I treated my illness with chicken broth (Monday evening); applesauce, cinnamon and honey (Tuesday morning), and the above concoction (Tuesday lunch).  By dinnertime, I was hungry in an empty and angry way - man in the house made chili and it seemed to do the trick.  Before bed, I had a small apple and in the middle of the night I woke up with severe cramps.  These cramps are disturbingly accompanied by cold sweats lasting a few seconds.  The pain I felt most of yesterday is what I imagine being beaten must feel like.  My rib cage, shoulders, stomach, groin, and legs throbbed - the pain radiated and I have no idea where it originated from.  There are other symptoms too delicate to mention on this family-friendly blog. 

I've been doing a lot of Dr. Googling and have come to the following conclusions:

  • my pancreas is turning in on itself and producing too much lipase (yup), or:
  • my pancreas is not producing enough lipase 
  • it's hormonal and cold sweats are early onset of menopause (almost FORTY here...)  
  • it actually is gastroenteritis (this is by far best option and most likely)
  • body is rebelling against wheat-free regime (to hell with this, give me some pasta!

As you can see from my scientific observations, I have no idea what's knocked me off my (sore) feet.  

I, of course, am a strong believer that knowledge is power and that it's up to the individual to be aware and beware.  I appreciate, however, that it's very difficult to interpret the myriad of information out there and without the proper time and proper frame of mind, one might get lost in it all.  

I've been reading the wheatbelly blog religiously - religiously, I say!  I've put too much time and emotional energy into the thing, and while it is undoubtedly terrific, it's not everything.  Nothing's everything (chew on that one for awhile, eh?)  Lowering carbohydrates is a good idea - yes, but not eating any fruit?  Not so much.  There is also a tendency towards saturated fats (meat fats, etc.) that leaves an icky taste (literally).  His entire premise is confused by what it means to give up wheat and what it means to lose weight effectively and what is or is not "permitted" on the "wheatbelly plan".  So. there.  I'm skeptical now, and I'm going to find my own happy middle.  No wheat, fresh, organic, varied, and lovingly prepared and, of course, photographed.  

This writing has given me a bit of an energy-boost.  Tonight is zumba and yoga, but I really do worry that it's too soon - something glandular is going on and I'm likely to sweat a small river with such exertion.  Too much info?  Right.  

Well, I'm off then.  Ta.  

Sunday, October 21, 2012

bbq pork loin with portobello mushrooms and turmeric kale with sunflower seeds

shrimp and squash

If my stomach doesn't start working properly, I swear I'm going to have a piece of toast.  Indescribable discomfort and very little relief.  

From now on I'm going to eat more nuts, drink more water, and eat fruit as necessary.  


My digestive system has obviously not realized we've given up wheat and I'm paying the price.  Hrumph.  

Saturday, October 20, 2012

rainy saturday afternoon

 We are trying to help our girls rid themselves of wheat and sugar.  With 8 year old, sugar is clearly an addiction and her moods have always been severely impacted by sugar consumption; she's also preoccupied with crackers, desserts, etc., and will always choose these snacks instead of healthy alternatives.  Thing is, it's not their fault, obviously, it's ours, for having addictive substances in the house.  

Older daughter is more self-regulating, but still enjoys bad-for-you food.  I've put into place a new rule at home - no eating anywhere but the dining room table.  The girls like to take their food to various stations around the house (bedrooms, computer table).  Both girls threw veritable tantrums (as I knew they would), but so far have complied.   

I'm also going to start recording what youngest one eats to try and judge how much of an impact food is having on her state of mind.  She's the sweetest child under the sun, but can turn nasty when blood sugars are unstable.  

 I have not been doing fabulously.  PMS is throwing me off, along with work-related stress and the perceived pressure from others to cheat (whatever that means).  While I have not had any wheat, I have had two gluten-free desserts resplendent with sugar and god knows what starches and additives...However, life is like that and there will be ups and downs. 

I made these muffins this morning from the amazing Joyous Health.  I realized after I'd begun that we were out of eggs - recipe required 3 - so I mixed 3 tbsps. of ground flax seed with water and used as an egg substitute.  It seemed to work well.  The recipe calls for maple syrup - I used Sucanut Sugar instead (not okay according to Wheat Belly).   For lunch, after a morning of emotion, the four of us sat down and had cauliflower and cheese sauce, and coconut crusted chicken (oldest girl loves this...) This blog has really helped a lot in our transition away from wheat and towards healthier alternatives.   

Off to plan out a week's worth of meals..and then off to the health food store!  

Thursday, October 18, 2012


Prepping for Brisket

And there it is!  Trust me, I don't cook this type of thing often...

Browning away...


From another angle...

Preparing veggies 

Sauce covering brisket..ready to go into the oven for 3 hours of braising..


Tender and flavourful...

Ready to serve...

Yes, I did.